Magicwand By Aishwarya Deshpande

This is a safe place. I can write, say, anything I wish to convey. After a long break in writing, I start today. Another set of posts. Even though not many of us like to read, this blog reaches a few. And hence so, I find my connection to the world. Since the last time, I know myself better. This journey of 'Who am I' has moved further. I shall share my experiences, thoughts that emerged in the last six months. I want to express, you never know, someone else might be going through the same? Why not make this a platform of expressing. Anything. Any thought, any experience, any idea. Write them. Here/ in your journal/ in your diary or even directly to me. Let's be a family, free of judgement and notions. Someplace where no one decides what is right or wrong. It's an open world and this is an open blog. Let's be kind and share love through non-judgemental support. A thought that stands out today. I miss my family. I am extremely close to them

Happiness is a state of mind. If I am not happy, its because I haven't found the way to be happy. I thought happiness is a result. Result of something I do. It's the product of hard work. But now I feel different. It is infact the only way one can change his/her own life from 'surviving' to 'living'. If I am happy while working hard, I don't mind the end. It doesn't matter if the end is positive or negative. What I remember is how I felt about it. I found a few things that helped me in achieving this state of mind. And I made a list of them. This list encompasses what I love doing and encourages me to keep doing it. I haven't yet completely achieved it. Might take a lifetime for it, but well, I can keep trying. Appreciating smallest of joys. Dressing up. Writing. Celebrating little achievements with a song and a dance. Learning to let go off things that are hard to deal with. Talking to a friend for hours. Watching a movie. Wor

Its march already. Time flies. In no time, I will turn 23. There is so much to do, feels like I haven't got enough time. I am happy I can write every week and don't feel like stopping. The next episode will be the 10th! (I am patting my back as I type it.) Today, I came back from London. Every Thursday I take a therapy session in London. Its been 1.5 year I have been in therapy as its the requirement of my course in university to be in one. Being in therapy is extremely new to me. Other than family and friends and talking to them about life, I have never had the experience of taking actual therapy before. I felt like writing about it today. I am learning to be a movement psychotherapist myself and therapy helps to deal with personal stresses that a student goes through in this process. I take Talking Psychoanalytical Psychotherapy.  There are two types. Group therapy and Individual. I am in individual therapy. I sit one on one with my therapist and we talk abou

As much as I hated the process of turning into an adult,  It turns out, I don't have to ask for permissions anymore! Yay! Even though I am much better in decision making NOW, I yet call my mom to chose between Subway sandwich and McDonald burger for me. As every another boy/girl would feel after turning 18! I felt, whoa! I am an adult. wohoho! But life said, Well, No oops, sorry not yet ! Haha The process of becoming physically and emotionally independent is what I call the biggest and the best adventure of my life. Things that I experienced after moving here. 1) Living alone. After living in a culture where I was surrounded by thousands of people, keeping you company, advicing you, loving you, living alone was horrible for the first few months. I definitely had second thoughts quite a few times in those months. Its like leaving all the luxuries of life and coming into nothing. No Tv, no car, no busky(my scooter), no restaurants, no idli, no dosa! However, now a

Life is meaningless without milestones. Life is meaningless without slumps. And one continuously tries to find the "Key to success". In the past 22 years of my life, I have always waited to know the key to success.  As a part of process of becoming an adult (which I am still not haha), some questions popped up in my very free mind.  Q.1.) Is there really a key? It will finally open the lock and I shall live happily ever after!!  Somehow that happens only in fairy-tales.  Q.2.) Sharma Ji's son is so successful! Did he find the key? I will use it for my lock too!! If such questions pop up in your mind too, read my episode - Mistake #1 Somehow nobody else's key fits in mine. Every lock has a different key! Every problem has a different interpretation. Every solution has a perspective. Finding my own key to success which fits my life, my goals.  That is what keeps me engaged. Only after recollecting all the hits and drops,

Since i was born, I have heard these lines. "Always respect your elders" "Always show respect to the elderly" We Indians have certain values that are taught to the kids in early years.  This is one of them. I always did so.  No matter what.  Every young kid I believe, has known this and has to abide by it without a word.  But Sometimes, I got disrespected and I couldn't speak a word about it.  I am sure every youngster goes through this once or twice in their life. "It is right because someone elder said so". For Eg: Youngsters most of the times give up their seat for the elder people. Nobody minds doing that. Because there is empathy.  But when a man changes his seat without consent to sit beside his relative, even when you have that seat booked in advance, and when asked for it, the man says "youngsters have no respect for elder's these days" that's tolerating. (I booked that seat in adv